What do you do when u just dont want 2 b here anymore?

but u know ur fam wont get the ins $ if u harm urself? whn there noone to talk 2 or u dont want to depress everybody around u? my husb of 26 yrs ped 5 yrs ago from a heartattack n my life has been shyt ever since. i miss him n though i got remarried last yr this man spends no time w/me n has had encounters, though im not sure if it got phys or not....with several oth women. im tired of being lonely, and being here. somebody PLEAse TALK TO ME